A fresh start to a new outlook

First off, I want to say thank you to those who have commented on my posts, despite the age and length of my absence. Your kind words and thoughts have helped to snap me back into pieces of my old life that I want to continue with instead of weed out like I did with everything else.

I have been wanting to write on here again for some time- but, quite honestly, two kids (one of which is now only two months old), graduate school, and plain old house work have kept me busier than I like to be. Even now I should be working on my final that is due tonight, but everyone deserves a break!

The road of my life in the past year and a half of my absence has been full of turbulence, disappointment, and unprecedented joy. I will not sit here and recap it all, as that would take far more time than I can spare at this moment; but I would like to say after a year of neglecting my spirit and soul, I have finally started to find my peace again and have even started dreaming about deity once more. I am about to celebrate my one year anniversary with the man of my dreams, the one who I could not live without. I have a beautiful daughter who will be five next month and an amazing son who is now two months and two days old. He is a summer solstice baby. =)

I've learned more about myself than I thought possible, and I also learned more about others than I wanted to at times. But, the bottom line is, I'VE LEARNED.

I will be back on here again, now that I feel that I can. =) Again, thank you to those who have kept coming and reading. You are amazing. =)

The enormity of being done

Today I took my final for my very last college class to complete my bachelors degree. While I don't have a grade on it yet (it was a written essay on a crime scene), the realization that, as of 11am today, I was done with school as I know it and two and a half short weeks away from officially being a college graduate... the feeling is something that I'm not sure how to described. I have stressed, laughed, cried, ranted, pissed and moaned, and thoroughly enjoyed the last three years of school. Well, technically four years, but I took almost a year off when I got out of the military because I had to wait for the VA to catch up to me. =) Regardless of time, the point is that I have done it. I have started at the bottom and worked, sweat, laughed, and cried my way through a four year degree. Even better? Wait, let me guess, you're wondering how it can get better... let me tell you! I have managed to earn and maintain the GPA required to graduate with honors AND I have been accepted into Alpha Phi Sigma. Yup, it can get better.

I just can't believe I'm done.....

..... for now. =)

How is it already Friday?

Well, my time warp continues, though I can't say it's been the magical kind that I normally enjoy!

I won tickets to go see Yanni in Concert on Saturday evening. I am a HUGE Yanni fan. My biological father brought my a video of his Live at the Acropolis [VHS] concert when I was 10, and I have loved his music ever since. This will be my fourth time being able to see him live. However, with that winning comes an extra busy week. The concert is in Salt Lake City, which is about four hours away. Since I'll be gone all weekend with the concert and our Beltane celebration, I had to get a midterm, final, and research project all done by today. Yea for Senior Level Classes! On top of all that, I lost all of Tuesday to deal with VA appointments, and I've got a retirement ceremony to be part of this afternoon. Somehow, I managed to finish up my final piece last night, which ended up being an 11 page crime scene evidence collection and analysis report followed by court room testimony. Added in with a midterm exam and a five page Forensic Odontology paper, my brain is officially fried. =) Enough about that though... you guys don't want to listen to me moan about my growing amount of school work. (Only two more classes left... YES!)

This Sunday my circle will be getting together for our Beltane celebration. We will have, for the first time ever, our own May Pole. I'm SUPER excited about this. I will never forget my first May Pole Dance. It's a memory that is permanently fused in my brain. I've also gotten my hands on some great music for the celebration.  Beltane: Songs for the Green Time is a really beautiful set of music for this time of year. I would totally recommend you check it out!


Last Tuesday I had coffee with Kat. (You know, the gal I wrote about in my last  two blogs). It was really great. I think that she and I have a very interesting path to walk together... to learn from and grown with. Shortly before my coffee with her, I stopped at one of the local "Metaphysical" stores, the Crones Cupboard. It had been a few month since I had been able to stop in, so I spent some time just walking around and checking it out. I had to restock some chime candles, since I always go through my white, black, and light blue ones really fast. As I was walking, I say this really pretty necklace with a wooden pendant with a rune on it. Now, I know squat about runes... I've never been able to use them well. Tarot cards and I do much better. Anyway, as soon as I saw this piece I loved it. It made me feel happy and sung to me. I left it on the rack though, just to see what I could feel from it by the time I was done. Well, by the time I was done with everything else, I still felt a draw to it. So, I went back, grabbed it, and looked at the tag to find out what it meant. This is what the tag said, "Raidho- the letter R in the Elder Futhark, it is a Norse Rune. It is the wheel. It's meaning is: journeys, path to spiritual fulfillment, surprises, good news, change in fortune. May it help bring you to your fulfillment!" I couldn't help but laugh as I read that, knowing I would be sitting down with Kat in less than 30 minutes. The world truly is a magical place!

I must be off now, I need to finish pack for this weekend before I have to go pick up the little one from school.

Brightest blessings, and in case I don't make it on Sunday, HAPPY BELTANE!